I am sorry Alka

"I mean what I say and I say what I mean." My name is Varun and I am an Idiot.

I don't know if you even read my emails or got my text messages, but I've been trying to tell you how sorry I am!!! I miss you sooooo much and I'm just dying inside!
You don't come across too many good friends in this life and when you do, you're supposed to keep them. I messed a good thing up and now I'm without the one person who understood and listened to me. The only one I could open up to and tell what I was feeling inside and going through! How I want you back in my life! Tell me how? Please! My life is in shambles right now!!

I am only out to make things right in my life; I honestly pray this will be one of them. In my opinion life is way to short. I understand why you would not want to talk to me again. I would never want anyone to make me feel how I made you feel the day before yesterday…After a few minutes I started to think about how horrible I was to you and from the bottom of my heart I'm sorry for my very poorly chosen actions. I've made some very poor decisions. I really am sorry for all of my mistakes. I wish that I would have thought about my actions or made better decisions before I acted. But it's too late now. I know that I'm not perfect and we are allowed to make mistakes in life. But I'm going to try hard to make better decisions from now on.
I don't know if things could ever go back to the way they were, I just don't want things the way they are....

Please forgive me......